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“Zhe Xian” — An English translation of a Chinese song.

A celestial song, a jade flute's call, A cup of dew, as pure as crystal wine. With graceful steps, the sword begins to dance, A white-robed figure glides through time. New palaces gleam with golden carvings, The strings of the konghou ring through the halls. With a single stroke of ink, he leaves behind A wild and untamed heart in every line. In flowing robes, with sword in hand, He wanders freely through the mountains and the lands. He writes like one possessed, with no sorrow to restrain, For poetry is his madness, and joy his only chain. They call him an immortal, yet Heaven cannot hold him, So down to the mortal world he comes. In the painted halls, he drinks with abandon, His eyes alight with endless tenderness. Another verse, another scroll, How many measures of ink can his heart bestow? He pours the fiercest wine beneath the heavens, And rests atop the towering towers of Chang'an. He gazes upon the world below, And wonders— Who could ever live so freely, With a heart as lig...

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“Zhe Ju” — An English translation of a Chinese song.

Rain beats upon the plantain leaves, Bending the willows beyond my window. Exiled to this humble dwelling, Even the leaking roof betrays me in the storm. A night of rain, a night of farewell, A heart weighed down by those who leave. When I have nothing left to call my own, What could I possibly offer a friend? Perhaps a poem may repay a kindness; I write, yet what debt can words repay? Perhaps a cup of wine may ease my sorrow, But with every swallow, the sadness grows. For ten long years, I've failed the friends and teachers Who once believed in me. Why should I burden even poetry and wine With the weight of all my regrets? Once, full of fire, I rode through Liangzhou, Once, I roamed with flowers and wine, Once, my name was known, my talent praised, A mind said to hold the wisdom of eight scholars. Let those memories rest within a dream. Let fallen blossoms drift along the stream. What is sorrow, if not autumn Dwelling in the heart of one who must part? I dip my brush into the f...

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“Yu Xi Tan” — An English translation of a Chinese song.

The River Chu runs through shifting sands, Empires rise and fall beneath the sun. The moon and stars have witnessed endless change, How many beauties have sighed beneath the weight of war? Who stormed the Qin's great gates at Julu, And brought an empire to its knees? A thousand miles of war, with blood upon the land, Yet in the end, all fades like clouds upon the breeze. With spear in hand, on horseback I conquered the world, Yet now, this final farewell tears at my heart. One cry of Yu Xi, Yu Xi! And tears begin to fall. Come, drink with me, one final cup, Let us taste the bitter and the sweet. The western wind blows through the endless night, Yet memories refuse to fade. Drunk, I raise my lamp and gaze upon my sword, While my beloved dances, her final steps growing faint. At Gaixia, the song of parting fills the air, The Chu songs echo from every side. With sorrow in her heart, she bids her love farewell, And falls upon her sword beneath the frost-cold sky. How can one abandon...

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“Nan Que” — An English translation of a Chinese song.

The curtains rise, the curtains fall, I lower my gaze and let my silk sleeves flow. Beneath the stage, the audience gathers, All longing to behold a beauty like a fleeting dream. I trace each delicate line of her face, A touch of vermilion upon her brow. Her waist sways like a willow in the breeze, Each fleeting glance sets a thousand hearts adrift. Now, dressed in splendor, the play begins, Upon the stage, I sing of joy and sorrow all alone. Graceful as clouds drifting through the sky, I dance in robes of rainbow silk. When the final curtain falls, Frost has already touched my temples. Like a painting brought to life, My figure moves as lightly as silk. The stage is filled with glory and light, But behind the curtain lies a heart torn apart. How can I leave behind these decades gone by, When the fragrance of countless memories Still lingers in the folds of my sleeves? My feeling: We spend our lives performing for the world, while time quietly writes its story upon us.

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“Ai Shang” — An English translation of a Chinese song.

As dusk descends, I watch the fading sun, And suddenly, your face comes back to mind. Though looking back brings nothing but sorrow, I still sigh for the beautiful days we left behind. The night grows deep, the stars fall into my eyes, I gather fragments of a tender light. A gentle breeze sets the candle dancing, While I dance alone, unseen, throughout the night. Petals drift away upon the wind. I'll keep our memories somewhere deep inside, And weave them into dreams of a gentler kind. Perhaps these fantasies will only hurt me more, But what is wrong with pretending to be fine When there's no one left to share this joy? You once were the border of my world, The shield that kept my sorrows far away. Now autumn winds blow, and old friends disappear, Exiled by love, I wander through my tears. Ah... Ah... I loosen my silken robes, hide my tears behind a smile. I wait for you in your armor, to face the storms of time. The past keeps flowing, no matter how I try to hold it back. I'll dr...

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“Ban Shan Xue” — An English translation of a Chinese song.

Frost falls upon the courtyard beneath the moon, Whose sleepless eyes will it watch over tonight? My pen disturbs the candlelight, Yet memories are too painful to put into words. Every story told beneath the heavens Must, in the end, surrender to goodbye. Through countless changing skies, The moon waxes and wanes, yet never tells me why. Half a lifetime of wind and snow, Cannot wash away the tears shed when the flowers fall. I cannot call back the lonely wild goose, For it was always destined to fly south. Who could ever understand the secrets of my heart? Only the moon remains, keeping me company. Longing leaves another trace of weariness Between my brows. Half a lifetime of wind and snow, Cannot erase the tears that time has left behind. Nor can I bring back the days when my hair was black, Now every strand has faded into grey. Who will write the final chapter? This endless tale of love and sorrow Has no ending I can change. All I can do is gaze at my own shado...

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Please, Lord, help me get one more. (Hacksaw Ridge, 2016)

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As a language learner, your main job is not to fully understand what the other person is saying, but to keep the conversation going.

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7 Truths of Reality

No one is coming to save you. Being a functioning adult means realizing you are responsible for everything in your life, even if it wasn’t your fault. Strong boundaries make for good relationships. Weak boundaries make drama. Many of your problems don’t get fixed, you just learn how to live despite them. Your mind lies to you all the time, it will tell you that the world is ending when it’s not, that a mistake is fatal when it’s not, that everyone is thinking about you and laughing about you when they’re not. Learn how to tell your mind to shut the fuck up. Stop trying to convince people to like you, the right people won’t need to be convinced, and everyone else is just going to get very annoyed. Sometimes the best thing you can do is let a dream die, no one likes to hear that but it’s true. Only a few people in your life are going to matter in the long run, when you find them treat them right, make time for them, keep them close and be grateful.

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How to do history research?

This article is not intended for academic research. Instead, it is aim at ordinary readers who want to evaluate the reliability of historical claim. To begin, we can look at the general context. Any relevant secondary sources will do at this stage. The information in these sources is not necessarily accurate. but they can help us build the necessary knowledge we need, including an understanding of the historical context, timeline, and established interpretations. It is also helpful to identify areas of contention among different source. Next, we can try to track down as many primary sources as possible, including written records (such letters, diaries, goverment documents etc), oral histories, artifacts and other form s of material culture. Then comes one of the most important steps: performing a “CRAAP” test. C stand for currency, which refers to how recent or old the infomation is. R stand for relevance, which asks whether the information is relevant to the historical claim. The f...

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